Tuesday, January 10, 2012 7:05 PM

Am I not good enough?

She's the girl I have always known. She's the girl beyond perfection. She is the girl I dearly loved; the girl who has been mine for a year and months. She has a different world compared to mine. I already have her as my girl―but why do I feel so inadequate for her? I feel like she deserves better and that she could find someone a lot better than me. She deserves someone that will be able to support her and get her whatever she wants, when she wants, or when she needs it. I feel she deserves someone that's actually good at things, talented, smart, and someone who could make her happy in the long run. I feel like I have none of those attributes. Though I tried to be one, I already gave everything I have, and took out the best in me. I've told myself so many times that I'm not good enough and that I won't ever be good enough, unless I get a good job that pays well, so I can live with her and make her happy.
 
Yes, we were happy. But that was once. Not until this and that came. I can't blame God for making him a perfect one, while I, am the loser one. I know I am not gifted with the looks, I have a crooked nose, I am not that blessed with brains, but hell I'm trying to be smart and witty. I have tried my best, yet, why do I feel like the loser? Every time I hear his name, or just see him around, or what, anything connected to him, or anything that catches her attention, makes my esteem go low. 

Am I really that bad enough? I believe there's nothing wrong with me, but am I not good enough?

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