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Day 10/366

I woke up feeling so anxious about everything that is happening around me. My eyes were swollen; but my right eye was bloated that I can't open it. Then, I heard her voice on the phone again.. it was like, enchanted, magical, I don't know how I'd describe it. It literally broke every piece of me again. I was filled with mixed emotions, but above all, the pain was covering my heart and made me suffocate. To forget the pain away, I just slept til afternoon came. I sent my classmate a text message saying I will be around for my practice game in the gym. I haven't eaten anything since yesterday; water was just the only buddy I have. I just grabbed 4 slices of Gardenia's and ate it up, drank water and then left.

After the tiring practice, we, together with my teammates, agreed to go on a road-trip just around the town vicinity. It was still early when we finished roaming around so we agreed on what to do next. It was a good thing when a friend suggested we'd go KTV and spend the rest of the night there. It was around 8 in the evening when the 5 of us rented an exclusive room, ordered some drinks and got wasted. It was actually my first—wait—second time to go out with this group since I just spend most of my time at home and I don't really drink. But this night was just as perfect as my situation. I can't believe I cried in front of them while venting out what I felt. Being the youngest among them, it was a good thing they understood my current situation and told me their stories where I could relate mine.

The next thing I knew was that I went home, lie down in bed, sent her a good night message and slept.

Apparently, alcohol could take all the pain away—temporarily. I am currently thinking of things I could do to take this away permanently, though.